dark clouds are all over me now. there’s no sun to brighten up my day.
well, im pretty much unsure why am i being so emotional lately. i feel like im being forced to live in an unstable emotional state. being cranky all day long, and in fact all week long, isnt very exciting. honestly, it kills me. it kills everything i have.
sometimes i feel like people are giving me hell lately.
asking me to do things i dont want to do.. – like ‘duh.. it’s not even a part of my responsibility. it yours actually.. and y the hell did u ask me to do it. i would help if i could. but, not now. i dont feel like doing anything. i just feel like doing my work, go back home and sleep. i wish i cud live a life like that for the time being. but as always, reality bites. it doesnt always go the way u want it to be. and worst of all, i have to succumb to that.
questioning all my actions – which dont matter to them at all… some people, they are just born as busy bodies. they get nosy about everything, including those that dont concern them. hey biatches, grow up and get a life. i do what i want to do. and i dont think that my actions give impact to ur life anyway. so why bother questioning when u get nothing out of it. dont u know that by questioning all of my actions, u’ve actually stepped too close into my personal space..? and tell u what, i hate it very much. i need my space! as long as i dont question ur actions, then please step back!!
blame me on all of the problems – i dont know why i always end up in people mess. and somehow, im indirectly involved in the mess as well. sometimes people come to me and ask me some advice. well, claiming myself as a good friend, i wud definitely tell them what i think about their problems. the nature of giving and taking advice, each party should know that they have to consider everything before taking one’s advices. they cant simply take it without even consider it themselves. and if things went wrong, then i’ll be put the blame on. happened to me a few times and it happened again lately. so, sometimes i feel like well, there’s no use of giving advice to people anymore. at the end of the day, i’d be blamed again!
giving me that cynical looks – which i dont think i deserve them… just becoz im a bit different from u? well, honestly u act like a baby. u judged me, but i didnt. u said i cant accept negative comments, but in fact i’ve explained my situation, gave reasons for my actions and considered ur comments. well, if i think tht the comments are not true, then of course i have to defend myself professionally. and when i do so, u said im being defensive, when u r the one who actually have issues with urself.
treating me like i know nothing about the world – i am a 24–year old guy. i’m a grown up adult. for god sake. dont treat me like im a toddler. i dont like people to dictate my life as if im incapable of doing so. i have a life and i want to lead my life as i like. u dont tell me to do things just becoz u feel it’s right to do so. u dont blame me just bcoz i dont do things u asked me to do. bcoz it’s my life and i have the total right to do things my way.
phew… finally, im able to finish this after a few times saved it as a draft. well, this entry is written when im being enveloped with negative energies. so im sure some of u might feel as if im directing some of the issues up there to u. but honestly, i dont think that the ones im directing to, know the existence of this blog anyway. but if u feel like im talking about u, please ask me to confirm. i dont want our relationship goes sour just becoz of this one.
and last but not least,
“dark clouds please go away, little mien wanna play”









it shud be fun!! 


Given to me early last year. I still keep it. Dia macam tau2 tht i wud get posted to Sabah kannn..? but just like what’s written on it, i do really love Sabah. 

