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Monthly Archives: July 2008

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Hey hey.. Today is pretty eventful for me. Woke up with headache and runny nose. It spoiled my mood for the day coz i really dont feel like doing anything. But i know that today is a very important day for one of the members of my gediks-o-babies clan.. She is getting married today, and i promised her that I will attend it. My initial plan was that I will go there with Julie.. but last nite, she texted me that she’ll go there with her bf, and the car is gonna be full with some other people. no space for me…  so i was pretty sad bcoz that was the only plan i got. so i thought of driving to Kluang all by myself. *long sigh…* Most of my friends had to go to school today, so they could not join me.. *another long sigh*. so this morning i was undecided. I didnt feel like going because im not that well.. but some part of me wanted to go becoz i knw tht she’ll definitely gonna bombard me with her shrieking voice if i didnt come. luckily Hafiz could join me. i was quite pleased with that. but i was still undecided on what time to start the journey. around 9am, another friend of me,Star, asked me whether the trip is ON or not, because he and Hilmi wanted to join it as well although they were still in school at that time. I was very pleased to hear that. They ponteng sekolah, and off we drove to Kluang around 11.15am.

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see how fast i drove my kelisa.. 160kmph… ahaaa… the journey was supposed to take us 3 1/2 hours, but we reached the hall in just 2 1/4hours. pretty speedy i know… my mom wud surely get angry if she knows about this. well, purata speed wud be 135kmph.. so basically it wasnt that fast really..  We were glad that it was a smooth-sailing journey. didnt get lost a bit, tho the fact that we dont have the map to the hall. going to Kluang is easy, but to the specific place it was really hard without any map. thanks to hotlink.. we managed to find the way by calling Jamie. She gave us the direction, and we reached the place in no time.

Soon as we reached there, the bride and the groom were already there.. they were about to walk into the hall. Sudi looks so nice and so beautiful with that pink wedding dress. The couple looks lovely!! and the wedding was pretty grand… So here are some pictures of the wedding. didnt snap so much really… so guys, enjoy the pictures ok. i know some of u couldnt attend it, so the least i can do is to share the wedding moment with u guys thru these pictures.. unedited version.. fresh frm the camera!!

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So Sudi and her husband.. congratz again on ur wedding.. semoga bahagia sehingga ke akhir hayat. jangan lupa tau datang kalau aku kawin.. hehe.. i did say ‘kalau’ tadi kan…? 😛 so dont speculate!!

 

 

 

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I believe that many of us have been in love at least once. Those lucky people might still be in love with someone that they wish they could spend their lifetime together with. But not all people are lucky. That’s the fact of life. Some people, they might fall in love with someone they thought could be their other half, but it didnt last as long as they wish it could be. Or some people they might fall for the wrong person which make them suffer more than being happy. and i guess, im one of those unlucky person. always fall for someone who isnt meant for me. not once, but a few times. The feeling of being in love is undescribable.. some people, they feel that somehow when they are in love, they have a reason to wake up in the morning, and to actually live a life. i used to feel that as well. i had a short moment to cover myself with those feelings. although it was a very short one, but it has a huge impact on me! i felt complete as a person.

but what about when there is no more love..?

wud it make my life miserable… wud it make my dignity tarnished. some people might easily utter the phrase ‘be strong…’ or ‘u’ll find someone better’.. but in reality, it bites and it hurts me more.. when u wake up, u dont have the sort of feelings that u want… u feel empty deep inside u.. u dont have something that u r looking forward to see or do.. and what you can do is to concentrate doing other things. u make urself busy so that the loneliness wont overshadow u too much. yea u will feel lonely sometimes, but at least it wont hurt u that much..

and that’s y i dont feel like getting involve in a relationship for the time being.. i dont like the moment when there is no more love.. it’s gud to be loved by someone, but i am not sure about how long will it last. and when u dont feel like that person is meant for u, u’ll start to feel all those hurting feelings all over again. i hate that, and i dont want it to happen. at least not for now. im still in the process of mending my broken heart.. it was broken into thousand pieces.. and i feel that it will take some times for me to pick up all those pieces and glue it back again. now, im diverting myself to other kinds of love.. love of family and friends only. because i know they will always there for me…


I believe that many of us have been in love at least once. Those lucky people might still be in love with someone that they wish they could spend their lifetime together with. But not all people are lucky. That’s the fact of life. Some people, they might fall in love with someone they thought could be their other half, but it didnt last as long as they wish it could be. Or some people they might fall for the wrong person which make them suffer more than being happy. and i guess, im one of those unlucky person. always fall for someone who isnt meant for me. not once, but a few times. The feeling of being in love is undescribable.. some people, they feel that somehow when they are in love, they have a reason to wake up in the morning, and to actually live a life. i used to feel that as well. i had a short moment to cover myself with those feelings. although it was a very short one, but it has a huge impact on me! i felt complete as a person.

but what about when there is no more love..?

wud it make my life miserable… wud it make my dignity tarnished. some people might easily utter the phrase ‘be strong…’ or ‘u’ll find someone better’.. but in reality, it bites and it hurts me more.. when u wake up, u dont have the sort of feelings that u want… u feel empty deep inside u.. u dont have something that u r looking forward to see or do.. and what you can do is to concentrate doing other things. u make urself busy so that the loneliness wont overshadow u too much. yea u will feel lonely sometimes, but at least it wont hurt u that much..

and that’s y i dont feel like getting involve in a relationship for the time being.. i dont like the moment when there is no more love.. it’s gud to be loved by someone, but i am not sure about how long will it last. and when u dont feel like that person is meant for u, u’ll start to feel all those hurting feelings all over again. i hate that, and i dont want it to happen. at least not for now. im still in the process of mending my broken heart.. it was broken into thousand pieces.. and i feel that it will take some times for me to pick up all those pieces and glue it back again. now, im diverting myself to other kinds of love.. love of family and friends only. because i know they will always there for me…


Last nite, when i was having my dinner together with a few of my mates, I received a call from someone I call a brother. It has been awhile since the last time we communicated. and i was so glad that he called me. Although he just got back from Manila, but he never fails to call me, his little brother. We had a serious conversation about life and death, and religion as well.

He isnt that well.. so our conversations wud always be something too serious to be discussed on the phone. but, he made it clear that we had to discuss those topics so that i cud see more about the world. so that i could define what is ‘life’ in more depth. so that i cud see more perspectives of things. after all, i know his motive. he wants to leave me with useful advices before he left me for gud, and rest in peace. somehow, eventho the topics are too serious, but somehow i like to hear them. he makes me think everytime.

and last nite, he asked me a few questions which i didnt able to answer. I shud feel ashamed about that really. but somehow those questions made me think more about who i really am.

These are the questions;

1. How do u know that Islam is the true and only religion?

2. How do u know the existence of your God?

3. Are u a muslim because ur parents are..?

those are the 3 main questions, but there are a few others. i know the answers to some of the questions, but somehow i wasnt able to put it into words, and i was extremely stuttered. he said it’s ok if i cant answer ‘em, but it is important for me to think and find the answers as it might help me to get to know myself and my religion better. he is such a thought-provoker.  im sure i need to spend a few weeks to do that.. so what say u..??


i dont know what is happening with malaysian children nowadays. they are so open and so expressive in terms of showing how they feel about someone. if i could remember exactly the time when i was a small kid, the person i wud give a kiss on the cheek wud be my parents, and a few random cute younger kids. i wudnt dare to kiss anyone else. yesterday, or was it 2 days ago, one of the pre-schoolers came into the staff room. She saw me making some cute cards, thus made her walk towards my table. So, I did layan her a bit by asking some random questions i could think of. and i did show her to make cute cards and gave her everything she needs to make one. So while making the cards, both of us were talking while listening to her favourite song. She loves “Pencinta Wanita”, “My heart” and “ketahuan”. So i played those songs over and over again. She kept on singing the songs very loudly that i thot everybody could hear. She has the gut really. After awhile, both of us done making our cards. Suddenly, she asked me whether i got magic pen or not. then i asked her “what for?”. She replied “tunggu je laaa..” So i waited. When i was busy doing other stuff, suddenly I felt two small hands touching my neck and cheeks. I could hear clearly “ooo cutenye cikgu ni”. In all of sudden, she kissed my cheek, and i was so shocked. I couldnt say a word, but my first reaction was that I turn my body and looked around me 360 degrees. OMG OMG i was sexually harrased, by a pre-schooler.  I dont mind about the kiss, but people might misunderstood the incident, thus might put the blame on me. After that i said to her “thanks for the kiss, but it is not a proper thing to do.” I told her that perhaps she could give me a flying kiss instead of a real kiss on the cheek. her mom might get furious to know that.. Later after that, she came back to my desk and handed me the card that she made, with my name in it and a few lines of her thoughtful thought. She’s so adorable, and she knows how to express herself well. I kinda like to have a daughter like that. I belive that her mother wud be so proud to have such adorable daughter like that  


.. tapi aku rindu kau sangat-sangat. hmm aku tatau la aku gila, angau, atau ape. tp mcm tu la perasaan aku setiap kali aku ternampak ko kat mana-mana. aku benci sebab kau tinggalkan aku saat-saat aku memerlukan kau. aku sedih sebab ko buat aku jadi tak tentu hala. and aku marah sbb kau buat-buat tak kenal aku. tapi hakikatnya, aku tetap merindui kau. aku tau aku tak patut ada perasaan tu lagi selepas apa yg telah terjadi. tapi aku hanyalah manusia yang tak mudah nk lupakan segala-galanya dalam sekelip mata. mungkin aku boleh buat-buat tak nampak, tapi dalam hati, aku meronta-ronta. aku tak suka dengan keadaan yang macam ini. kadang-aku aku nak je tengok ko mati, tp most of the time aku nk ko sentiasa bersama ngn aku.. tp aku tau yg itu semua tak mungkin akan terjadi walaupon seribu tahun. so, for the time being aku akan pastikan yang aku takkan jumpa kau kat mana-mana. harapan ku agar ko selalu happy ngn apa saja yg kau buat and please, i might look so desperate by saying this, but please jangan lupakan aku..


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Ha Putrajaya.. 

A place where it all started.

A place where i let my heart to be stolen.

A place where i spent countless unforgettable nites.

A place where i was lost in my own world.

 

Woke up a bit early last Saturday. Had to accompany my friend to fetch her nephews in Bangi to their tuition center in Puchong. So basically we had a long journey from Lembah Pantai to Bangi, and headed straight to Puchong. Since the tuition wasnt very long, just 2 hours, so Chinot decided just to chill at a mamak stall nearby. Had a mouth-watering mamak fried noodle and a few pieces of roti telur. the taste is better compared to the one in Bangsar and the price is darn cheaper. We had a few glasses of kopi o panas, teh tarik, and limau ais. The total amount of food that we consumed that day was only RM9. Haha.. happy tummy, happy wallet. Spent there borak2 kosong, as kosong as air kosong, for almost 2 hours before we went back to the tuition center. Picked those 2 wicked boys and headed back to Bangi..

From Bangi, i asked Chinot whether she got any plan for the day. She said she didnt have any. So off we head to Putrajaya on a hot wheeled BMW. Chinot knows Putrajaya quiet well, so we didnt have much problem with the route to our destinations. I do sometimes, find Putrajaya quiet confusing even after countless visit to that place. So we parked the car a bit further front the main entrace of the Masjid Putra. It was a sunny and lovely afternoon. So we didnt mind to walk a bit to enjoy the sceneries.

As i was walking and enjoying the picturesque sceneries.. my mind was further miles away. reflecting about my life for the past 3 or 4 years. Somehow, Putrajaya has played quiet a big part in my life for the past 4 years. From an innocent teenager, i’ve become an experienced grown-up man. and the journey started here.. it is the starting point of my life as a person i am now. Neway, this place reminds me of a lot of people, bitter-sweet incidences, feelings, tears and laughters. I would say that this is the place where i started to mend those broken puzzle of life. All sorts of things ran thru my mind, tho it was just a short visit. but it somehow woke me up from a long deep sleep. i came to a realisation that i cant go back to the way i was before, and i need to do something to bring me back to the right path. i’ve been skidded away for so long, and now is the time to get back on track.

So Putrajaya, im sure i will go there again soon.  I need some realisations every now and then.