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Monthly Archives: September 2006


Sempena kedatangan Ramadhan yg mulia ini, aku dengan =
rendah dirinya (diriku ini yg sememangnya agak rendah ketinggian) ingin =
mengambil kesempatan untuk memohon kemaafan drp korg seme sekiranya =
pernah aku terkasar dan tersalah bahasa, perbuatan dan sebagainya samada =
yg aku sedari mahupun tidak… Dan marilah kita sama2 cuba untuk =
memperbaiki diri masing2 menjadi insan yg lebih sempurna disisi Pencipta =
kita yg maha Esa..


Entry title yg agak best… actually Tqah yg meng isnpire me to =
use that title tho.. since her early entries seme gune sequence =
connectors which are quite nice for beginner like her..( like im so pro =
😛 )… but i wonder how she is gonna keep up her entries using those =
connectors after sometimes, keseratus sembilan puluh dua… letih weh nk =
tulis tajuk saja… anyway, tqah jangan marah ek.. saje je nk kaco hang =
sebagai introduction for this entry.. maybe i’ll use those sequence =
connectors for this entry (but still undecided..) ehehe 😛

Ramadhan is just around the corner… just 2 days more to go =
for another Ramadhan month for me.. im lucky to be able to stay alive =
until now… and be able to meet another Ramadhan.. however, who knows i =
might die tomorrow or the day after tomorrow… and tak sempat nk sambut =
Ramadhan buat kali ke 20… sape yg tahu kan..?? but i hope Allah will =
let me to celebrate Ramadhan again and again… until the time comes for =
me to meet him… Ntah la… dulu masa kecik2, masa duk kat umah… =
menyambut ramadhan adalah sesuatu yg cukup bermakna, istimewa etc.. tp =
dh besar2 dan duk jauh dr family, kemeriahan menyambut ramadhan kurang =
dirasai.. and i believe perasaan macam ni la yang aku perlu kikis… sbb =
kita sebagai umat islam, kita perlu rasa bahagia, dan sambut ramadhan =
semeriah2nya.. tp maybe sebab kesibukan ngn pelajaran dan kehidupan =
sosial, aku mula lupa untuk memeriahkan ramadhanku… dh 2 tahun aku =
rasa ramadhan aku tidak semeriah dulu, dan aku sangatlah menyesal sbb =
tak mampu nk gunakan nikmat yang Allah kasi kat aku sebaik2nya… =

aku bukanlah manusia yg baik, sempurna, soleh, kamil dan =
sebagainya.. kalau korg mengikuti entri2 aku yg sebelum ni pon korg =
tentu tahu perangai aku yg tak seberapa elok sgt tu kan..?? hmmm tapi =
mcm yg aku ckp la kan.. i want to change… and aku sentiasa kuatkan =
semangat aku untuk berubah.. tp kekadang tu pengaruh2 luar terlampau =
kuat untuk aku tepis.. kekadang tu aku rasa aku tak cukup kuat untuk =
menempuhi dugaan2 tersebut…

tp sempena ramadhan ni, aku harap aku boleh berubah.. aku harap =
aku akan berubah.. dan aku harap perubahan yg aku lakukan akan kekal =
sampai bila2… aku tak harap aku dapat berubah menjadi seorang yg =
terlampau baik.. cuma at least, aku akan jadi lebih baik dr aku sekarang =
nie… aku tak harapkan perubahan secara mendadak, kerana pada =
kebiasaanya sesuatu yg berlaku secara mendadak akan hilang secara =
mendadak jugak. so aku tanak la perubahan aku hanya untuk sementara, aku =
nk ia kekal…

so, untuk Ramadhan kali ini, aku akan;

1. Kemas bilik aku sebaik2nya untuk menyambut =
Ramadhan

2. bangun awal – sahur dan tak tido dh lepas tu

3. gunakan masa sebaik2nya

4. lengkapkan ibadah mana yg tak cukup

5. tambah ibadah2 sunat – baca al-quran

6. kurangkan perkara2 yg boleh menguruskan pahala puasa =
aku..

7. berbuat baik sesama manusia

8. berjimat cermat

insyaAllah.. ku harap Ramadhan kali ini lebih bermakna… aku =
pernah lupakan mu ya Ramadhan, aku pernah abaikanmu ya Ramadhan.. tp =
kali ini aku akan sambut mu sebaiknya. Ya Allah bantu lah hambaMu yang =
lemah ini…


Don=E2=80=99t you ever wish
You were someone =
else
You were meant to be
The way you are =
exactly
Don=E2=80=99t you ever say
You =
don=E2=80=99t like the way you are
When you learn to love =
yourself
You=E2=80=99re better off by far
And I =
hope you always stay the same
Cause there=E2=80=99s nothing =
=E2=80=98bout you I would change

I think that you =
could be
Whatever you wanted to beI
f you could =
realize
All the dreams you have inside
Don=E2=80=99t be afraid
If you=E2=80=99ve got something =
to say
Just open up your heart
And let it show you =
the way

Don’t you ever wish
You were =
someone else
You were meant to be
The way you are =
exactly
Don’t you ever say
You don’t like the way =
you are
When you learn to love yourself
You’re =
better off by far
And I hope you always stay the same
Cause there’s nothing ’bout you I would change

Believe in yourself
Reach down inside
The =
love you find will set you free
Believe in yourself
You will come alive
Have faith in what you do
You=E2=80=99ll make it through

Don’t you =
ever wish
You were someone else
You were meant to =
be
The way you are exactly
Don’t you ever =
say
You don’t like the way you are
When you learn =
to love yourself
You’re better off by far
And I =
hope you always stay the same
Cause there’s nothing ’bout you =
I would change

Don=E2=80=99t change…

hmm.. =
2.4-ians.. everytime i listen to this song… kenangan2 terindah dan tak =
indah mase foundation years kat ipba slalu je bermain kat =
kapla otak aku.. and this song is the beginning of all.. the song =
performed during the induction nite… and because of this song la aku =
kenal rapat ngn insan istimewa, my best friend, ainur rahmah ellias.. =
she memorized lots of songs tho.. and she can sing really well.. huhu… =
then after sometimes, f2.4-ians become closer and closer and closer to =
each other.. under the guidance of mr. chong, our papa.. miss him =
loads… miss 2.4 too… god bless all of u no matter where u are.. =


<p>&lt;p&gt;i was thinking about lots of old sweet and sour memories in =<br />
these past few weeks.. and i keep on thinking about my friends since i =<br />
was in primary school, secondary schools, colleges…&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;huhu.. neways, i used to study in;&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;1. Sekolah Kebangsaan Pusat, Kemaman, Terengganu…&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;- i really miss this school.. my teachers… ustazah2 kelas =<br />
KAFA… kawan2… kantin.. bajir.. seme bende la.. hmm i love this =<br />
school so much coz this is the first place i had my proper education.. =<br />
since i didnt go for kindergarten… The friends that i can remember =<br />
are; Syahidi, Aniq Asmui, Albanna, Azree, Huda, Nadia, etc etc =<br />
etc…&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;2. Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Chukai&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;3. KMB-SMKTAI, Kuala Berang, Terengganu&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;4. Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Chukai..&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;5. S****** S**** M******&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;6. Sekolah Menengah Kebangsaan Chukai..&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;-huhu.. i dunno y i cant stay at other schools besides SMKC.. =<br />
fuh.. i got several offers but it didnt last for long.. maybe because i =<br />
wasnt meant for that schools tho… there is always a silver lining for =<br />
any darkest sky.. so.. just forget about that… lets talk about my =<br />
SMKC… this is another place for me.. where i found lots of true =<br />
friends.. the meaning of life… cabaran dan dugaan hidup… joy.. =<br />
sorrow… hardwork… determination… and many more… and i really =<br />
enjoyed myself being in that school… and seriously there are so many =<br />
things which i cudnt forget forever, such as;&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;a. Friends;&lt;/p&gt;&lt;blockquote dir=3D”ltr” =<br />
style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;&lt;p&gt;Form 1: Zikri, Ja, Shahridzi, =<br />
Zurina, Eda, Amin..&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;Form 2: Eda, Ja, Dzul Haqimie, Shahridzi, Helmi, Lina =<br />
Nazihah….&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;Form 3: Qimie, Helmi, Lina Nazihah, Ja, Afa, etc..&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;Form 4: Norul, Fid, Hasyim, Faza, Zubir, most of my classmates =<br />
la..&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p&gt;Form 5: Same as form 4..&lt;/p&gt;&lt;/blockquote&gt;&lt;p =<br />
dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;b. exams and =<br />
results…&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;c. certificates, =<br />
presents, awards, and money….&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;d. quizzes, tests, =<br />
competitions…&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;e. late midnite classes =<br />
– when i was doing my RekaCipta project.. &lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;f. =<br />
supports…&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;g. etc etc =<br />
etc..&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;7. Kolej Matrikulasi =<br />
Pahang&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;- undertook Sains Hayat =<br />
for just a few months before i got another offer… The best thing about =<br />
this college when i reached there was that it was a new college and i =<br />
did manage to officiate em all… haha… everything pon baru.. so it =<br />
was really enjoyable to be able to use new stuff tho… and the tutors =<br />
and lecturers were also very supportive eventho the life in that college =<br />
was really hectic with tutorial tasks almost everyday … i manage to =<br />
experience it for about 2 months ++ i think..&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;8. Institut Perguruan =<br />
Bahasa-Bahasa Antarabangsa&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;- a small college tp in =<br />
this college i meet loads of people.. ade yg baik ade yg kurang baik… =<br />
ade yg best ade yg tak best.. pendek kata.. macam2 ada.. and this is my =<br />
first time duk kat kolej yg jauh from my house.. huhu. pendek kata kene =<br />
berdikari abes la… and met loads and loads of new friends… and new =<br />
experience as well.. &lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;9. The College of St =<br />
Mark and St John…&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;- im currently in this =<br />
college.. doing my 2nd year.. and i like this college so much… and =<br />
kinda like the student lifestyle here.. not as packed as in malaysia.. =<br />
less exams, and more courseworks.. independent learning… and i kinda =<br />
like every single question for my coursework.. it is not because they =<br />
questions are easy, but because they are ‘open’ questions, whereby no =<br />
fixed answers for that.. unlike malaysia.. the questions were to =<br />
‘closed’ and to get higher marks, u shud answer like what the lecturers =<br />
want u to answer.. and that was ridiculuous.. seriously, i dunno whether =<br />
they know the fact that every human is different from each other..??? =<br />
physically, the way we think.. so, we’ll not b able to give the same =<br />
answers as what’s on their minds.. and that makes my marks not as good =<br />
as ‘excellent people’.. hmm.. and one more thing, dulu i feel like im so =<br />
invisible.. most of the lecturers dunno who i am.. evn my coordinator.. =<br />
when a bunch of us met here.. she greet the ones she knows really well =<br />
with their names.. but me and some others (since we are not ‘talkative’ =<br />
enuff).. but here… it’s all different… equal right to say what u =<br />
like.. to get involve.. and most impotantly the lecturers know our =<br />
names… and use our nickname.. feel like very close and comfortable =<br />
with them.. i like this la… &lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;&lt;/p&gt;</p>
<p>&lt;p dir=3D”ltr” style=3D”MARGIN-RIGHT: 0px”&gt;waa.. kenangan2… i =<br />
miss d old days…&lt;/p&gt;</p>


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how old r u when u first….. i lost my virginity when i was =
18.. wakakaka…. hmm.. read further then you know.. =
haha…

hmm.. bosan la plak asyik buat survey then letak kat =
bulletin board.. haha.. skali skala masuk dlm blog pon ok gak… =

Lodge a report to police station
– not yet.. and =
hopefully i will not have to do this..

watching =
cinema
– lepas masuk ipba la kot.. sbb sblm tu aku seorang =
budak kampung yg begitu naif skali.. wayang pon tatau ropa bentuk cmne.. =

drove a car
– 13.. masuk kuar garaj =
je la..

tried to get close to a boy/girl
– cant remember.. i’m always try my best to get close to anybody… =
no sex preference coz people ask me to believe in gender equality which =
i dont..

fighting at school
– when i =
was 8 or 9.. kelas fardhu ain.. tertido dlm kelas smb tunggu ustazah =
dtg.. sedar2 baju aku dh kene conteng.. ape g ngamuk sakan la.. haha… =
tp gaduh yg paling best skali mase darjah 6.. siap bertumbuk2 bersepak =
terajang, jet mengejet kat surau… sbbnye ade budak laki ni mara aku =
sbb aku ejek2 die manja asyik nangis dlm kelas… balik umah bohong kat =
mak, ckp jatuh beskal.. haha.. mak ampun…

participate any tournament/ contest
– 9.. story telling =
competition.. wakaka.. rase cm klako la plak.. then after that ade masuk =
nasyid, menang peringkat daerah.. hahah.. klakonye la… pastu after =
masuk secondary school.. every competition pon aku kene masuk.. huhu.. =

go to university
– umuq 21 la.. =
before masuk universiti aku masuk kolej matrikulasi pahang umur 18.. =
umur 18 jugak aku masuk IPBA. ni 21 tahun masuk Marjon.. bukan =
university pon..

married
– not yet… =
tapi tatau ble la nk kawin… anyone..?

Had your =
first real kiss
– hmmm.. should i reveal this or keep it to =
myself..? ade la ‘kot’.. anyway.. that question needs some refinements =
before i cud answer it..

Fell in love
– when i was 11..

Lost someone close to you
– 9 years old.. my =
grandma..

Tried alcohol
– nope.. =
never..

Got your heart broken
– when i =
was 18

Got arrested
– nope.. stopped =
several times, but not to the extent of being arrested.. walaupun aku =
kecik, aku ade lesen memandu tau…

Smoked a =
cigarette
– used to. when i was 10.. together with ma =
cousins.. hehe.. zaman kanak2…

Broken a =
bone
– almost broken.. jatuh motor sbb kazen aku menunggang =
motor tersebut macam tunggang kuda!! sakit bontot aku tau… bayangkan =
la atas motor tu ade 3 remaja yg sedang membesar.. aku lak duk blakang =
skali.. skali kazen aku conget (condongkan- hmm sennag cite.. naikkan =
tayar motor depan) ape lagi, jatuh berdebuk aku atas jalanraya.. nasib =
baik jalan kampung and takde org sgt.. dh la sakit.. malu lak tu.. =
huhu

got cheated on
– 18.. manusia tak =
cukup ngn sorang ke..??

Rode a bus
– =
7.. balik kampung…

Went to a concert
– 18… konsert sure heboh aci kire tak..?? ahah..

Dyed your hair
– nope..

Got a car
– tompang kete org je la.. haha

Got your own cell phone
– 18

Got a myspace/ fster
– 18..

Snuck out of the house
– tak kot… dengan =
kebenaran la.. bukan susah pon..

Got your own =
digital camera
– this year.. selama ni duk pinjam yg org =
punye je..

First time u got drunk?
– =
dh ckp tak minum arak.. nk drunk cmne..?? hhmmm

neway.. takde pon soklan tanye pasal virginity… so aku reka2 =
cite je tu eh… aku tatau la ble aku ilang aku nye virginity.. nak cek =
cmne ek..?? hahahha 🙂


entry kali ni agak sensitif jugak la.. hahah.. bukan sensitif =
untuk manusia2 yg tak bertudung.. tp yg mana yg pakai tudung tapi =
hipokrit… well, it goes like this…

baru2 ni aku ade la terlihat gambar2 yang tak berapa senonoh =
from minah ni.. berpeluk2an ngn mat salleh.. (well.. aku tahu la ko =
study kat obesi, tapi takyah la nk show off sgt…) aku tak kisah sgt la =
kalau org yg nak peluk2 asal diorg tak hipokrit cm baiiiikkk sangat… =
tp minah ni, baaru je sebentar tadi aku tengok balik gambar die, and =
masya-Allah and alhamdulillah la sbb dh bertudung…. well aku ingat dh =
insaf ke ape… ye la kan, minah ni dh banyak malukan orang lain, dah =
banyak menyusahkan banyak pihak… so, kalau die nk insaf dengan start =
pakai tudung ni ok la kan…

pastu aku terdengar la desas desus aura-aura sekeliling aku =
nie.. minah ni bertudung bukan sbb insaf ke hape ke.. tapi bertudung sbb =
die takleh tgk org lain insaf… adelah member aku sorg ni dh insaf and =
start pakai tudung.. nampak ayu skali sebenarnya kalau perempuan2 kat =
luar tu dapat pakai tudung.. tambah seri kat muka… so, berbalik kepada =
cerita minah tadi, die mcm tak puas ati la.. sbb ramai org duk puji2 =
kawan aku tu kan… so, die start la pakai tudung… niat? well kalau =
niat tak betul, and bukan dari hati aku tak rase bende tu boleh =
kekal… lagipon kalau siang ngn budak2 mesia pakai tudung, tp =
malam ngn mat salleh..?? ape cite ni..??

so kesimpulannya… aku tak bersikap judgemental la kepada =
minah2 yang tak bertudung ni.. sbb ramai je kawan2 aku yg tak bertudung =
tapi baik mengalahkan org yg bertudung labuh.. i mean tak semua.. tapi =
most of them… so, kalau nak start pakai tudung.. takyah la sbb hasad =
dengki, sbb jeles, sbb nk org lain puji… tapi betulkan niat tu =
sikit… hmm.. maybe start pakai tudung sbb nk dekatkan diri ke jalan =
Allah ke hape ke sbb niat je yang penting skg.. yg lain mmg kurang =
penting.. so buat minah tu, insafla ek… terimas….