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Monthly Archives: May 2009

wah.. minggu ni macam laju je aku menghapdet blog aku. not so much of thoughts put in these few entries, but more of some light materials that i think rather interesting to share with. especially to those who dont have much to do in their daily lives. so these few entries might give u some ideas of things that you can do. well, i came across a typing test through this one bloke’s blog, Naim Husni Latif. me being me, quite competitive in nature decided to test my typing speed. i’ve tested myself in 2 languages, namely English and Bahasa. so the results are as below:

 

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Bahasa Malaysia
 
 
 
So i’ve tested myself. Would not consider myself as a speedy typer, but more of above average. I’d still look on the keyboard once in awhile when typing depending on the keyboards really. If im typing using the keyboard that im used to, then the frequency of me looking at it wud be lower and vice versa..
 
anyway, kalau takde kerja nk buat.. sila la test urself..  it shud be fun!!
 
So you think you can type..??
 

i’ve been tagged again. and this time around, my very own creative bloke, Kouda tagged me! it’s been awhile really. since 23rd april, but only last nite did i find out about it. sorry dude. it shows how long i havent been to your blog. ampun! been busy kot. haha alasannnn… :p neway, this tagging game is kinda cool too. so here’s how to play it;

This is more fun if you haven’t cleaned up your workspace in AGES. XD

1. IMMEDIATELY take a picture of your workspace. DO NOT ADJUST OR MOVE ANYTHING. Where’s the fun in that? Lol.
2. Find at least 5 things on your table that you think needs some explaining. (Like an object that isn’t supposed to be there).
3. Explain those items.
4. Tag your friends, or whoever that you feel has nothing better to do. Lol. Especially tag those who haven’t updated their blog in ages. Bagi inisiatif la konon ni. XD.

1.
IMMEDIATELY take a picture of your workspace. DO NOT ADJUST OR MOVE ANYTHING. Where’s the fun in that? Lol.

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Honestly i didnt adjust anything. u can see how messy my workplace is.. haaha too lazy to organise it. :p

 

2.
Find at least 5 things on your table that you think needs some explaining. (Like an object that isn’t supposed to be there).

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ok. the 5 items are as circled. there’s not much to be explained really, but i’ll try.

 

3. Explain those items.

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1. the “I LOVE SABAH” keychain. It’s from Abg Fares, thx!  Given to me early last year. I still keep it. Dia macam tau2 tht i wud get posted to Sabah kannn..? but just like what’s written on it, i do really love Sabah.

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2. Chinese Cinderella story book written by Adeline Yen Mah. One of my favourites. Bought it when i was still studying in the UK for one of the modules taken over there. Fall in love with it since the first time I read it. I’ve read this book for more than 20 times, and im sure i’ll read it again soon. haha it seems like i just cant stop reading it eventhough i might have remember every line of the book. :p

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3. Digital Camera magazine. Hehe.. well, it just one of the magazines that i have there at my workplace. there’s plenty more actually. Well, if the internet fails me, then i wud read them. As you know, magazines here in Sabah is more expensive compared to the ones in Semenanjung. Even so, i still buy some everytime i go out. 

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4. This picture of Dato’ Hishamuddin. Is he my idol that i still keep it eventhough he’s no longer the education minister..? nottt.. lol. it so happen that the picture used to be hung on the wall at my workplace. so once the new cabinet announced, the picture was taken down and i got no where to put it. so i just put it there at my workplace.  whatever it is, i like this guy. he’s pretty clean minister really. met him a few times when i was in IPBA and at the Nottingham Uni. Mesra and pretty much down to earth. U go, baiiii!!

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5. Last but not least, my personal board. a place where i stick my timetable and notes and all the pictures of the ones that i love the most. everytime i feel down or i miss someone, i wud stare at the board and i wud get better after awhile. this personal board isnt really personal. it seems like the students love to look at them too. “cikgu, itu anak kamu kah?” haha “kacak keretamu”, “kau org putih kaa?”.. :p too many funny questions, statements and remarks from them that make me laugh and smile everytime i think about it.

4. Tag your friends, or whoever that you feel has nothing better to do. Lol. Especially tag those who haven’t updated their blog in ages. Bagi inisiatif la konon ni. XD.

 

So, here.. Im tagging;

1. Musica Hikaru (last time mintak aku tag, so here u go)
2. Soya (she’s very creative.. i wanna see her workplace)
3. Najibu (i dont think he’d do this, but wth..)

 

p/s: dont play a game with my heart, my heart! :p


well last nite, one of my lecturers when i was in the matriculation college (she’s teaching in uitm penang now) contacted me about an offer given to graduate like i am to work part time in uitm and at the same time doing my masters. i think, it is a good offer. once i get into the system, it’s really easy for me to be in the system forever. but since im bonded with the government, it’s really hard for me to step out of it just like that.

and i’ve been thinking about this since last nite. and i even had a horrible nightmare last nite thinking about what to happen if i take the offer. and it scares me to death thinking about it.

 

1. i wish im not bonded.

2. but i am, apparently.

3. bonded to a 3–4 year contract.

4. and 3–4 year, what does it mean..?

5. who get to decide the duration..?

6. and what if i take the offer?

7. ethically, im being selfish..

8. i’ve used people’s money for my education, yet im escaping myself from serving them back.

9. but i’ll be serving people too.

10. being an educator in a higher learning institution.

11. at the end of the day, im still serving our people, rite??

12. so does it wrong ethically to bridge that contract??

 

i dont know. i dont know. seriously have no idea what to do. i got a few options really.

1. just stick to current position without much fuzz. get absorbed by the system and become like the others. become lose hope with the system, but feel complacent with the situation. well, another lazy ass in the makin.

2. take the offer. bridge the contract.and be happy with it… despite the fact that i have to bear all the consequences that will fall unto me as soon as i decide to take on the offer. get into another system, and put my finger crossed that the system suits me better.

 

but it’s not easy to decide. will i survive the thunders and hurricanes that may come along the way..? and i’ve asked a few people about this, and mostly said that im being ungrateful and i dont think far enuff. for god sake, i just merely asking for opinions so that i cud have broader perspectives of the issue. not that as if i’ve already decided to take on the offer and leave the school today! daaaa… there’s no need to make personal judgement and attack towards me, okeyh coz i dont really need that. and, there’s no need to compare between me or my batch and people in your cohort, for god sake. like “bukan nk katalaa, i rasa batch cohort1 lagi pk panjang”. it’s really unnecessary. it pretty much subjective and when we are comparing with too many people in one comparison, we tend to overgeneralise it. and that’s y i dont think it’s really necessary to voice that kind of remark. it doesnt help much with the issue really. to those i’ve  quoted, jgn amik ati. no heart feelings okie. merely expressing my thought. i know u wont makan hati. kita kan gengobabes, that’s y i love u much.. haha 😛

 

but,

the most important question that i have to ask myself, “is that what i really want?”..  im still looking for the answer.

well as for now, im just gonna put it aside as another option that i wud opt to when it’s possible.

 

p/s: no proof reading has been made to this entry. expect some grammatical errors (either alarmining or mild ones) :p