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Monthly Archives: March 2008

Faizal Tahir is back.. back on action after 3 months being banned from appearing in any public media for his action of taking off his tshirt and being half naked on a life show. pretty stooopid really.. he aint superman.. and he doesnt have what it takes to be one. look at his body laa.. nothing interesting.. my female mates and i did have a pretty nice conversation about this matter. and most of them dont like to see that. sorry Faizal, u might think that was a good strategy to win the crowd. but, you were wrong, man. and now it’s taken its toll on you really. being banned, sponsorship got cancelled.. hope that after 3 months, u’ve learnt a lot. dont do the same mistake again. people like you because of your talent. dont just put it to waste. i am still looking forward to see u perform (and of course with the baju on) and to hear more songs from you. i know you wont dissapoint your fan aite. im sure your fan-base is still strong and they will support you no matter what.  well.. early ths morning, one of my mates during the literature hour sent me a song from Faizal Tahir entitled “Sampai Syurga”. im not sure whether it is a new song or not, but i kinda like it at the very first time i listened to it. the melody somehow easy to ears. Do pay more attention to the lyric ok. it might be meaningful to certain people, and it is certainly meaningful to me. basically the song is about a failed relationship between 2 people. they used to love each other (in my case, cinta bertepuk sebelah tangan) giving hopes and giving love. but at the end of the day, they felt apart. that guy is still in love with her, but he knows that she deserves better guy than him. he accepts it, but inside, there is still a room for her. and he is hoping to be with her again, even if he has to wait. so that’s it really. that is just my interpretation, other might see it differently. anyhow, do enjoy the song.. and tell me how do feel about it. chiowwwss

 

Faizal Tahir – Sampai Syurga

 
Ku membenarkan jiwaku
Untuk mencintaimu
Ku persembahkan hidupku
Untuk bersama kamu

Dan diriku untuk kamu
Belum pernah kumerasai begitu

Semua itu telah berlalu
Harapanku palsu
Dan mungkin hari yang satu
Terus ku tertunggu

Di hatiku masih kamu
Belum pernah ku ingin terus memburu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik untuk diriku
Hanya satu
Hanya kamu

Ku membiarkan hatiku
Untuk merinduimu
Ku menghamparkan sakitku
Untuk tatapan kamu

Bersamamu harapanku
Hilang dalam terang yang membutakanku

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu

Dan segala yang ku ada
Ku berikan semua
Untuk dirimu saja

Ku mahu dirimu
Bahagia untuk selamanya
Biar sampai syurga
Aku menunggu cinta darimu
Agar ku sempurna

Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu
Namun aku tetap aku
Yang terbaik tuk diriku

Hanya satu

Aku lemah tanpa kamu
Ku inginmu dampingi ku
Aku fahami aku bukan terbaik
Untuk dirimu

Sampai syurga ku menunggu
Sampai syurga ku cintamu
Hanya kamu


A few days ago, somebody commented on the way i dress-up! being a shorts-lover, i have a huge collection of shorts ranging from below to above knee level. So when i was about to go out to buy some burger at the KL-PJ gate with some mates, we passed by a few coursemates of ours. One of them, someone i know loudly said to me “pendeknye seluar..”. and my friends and i was like wtf.. i didnt know what to respond, but i did say “alhamdulillah”. Again, maybe she meant well. She doesnt want to see her friend (me) to keep on deliberately accumulating sins by wearing something that doesnt cover the aurah. but.. the way she said it was quite annoying and somehow humiliating. there are so many other ways for us to actually tegur someone if that someone does something which is wrong. In my case, i know the fact that it is wrong for me to wear shorts which is above knee-level as it doesnt cover my aurat. many people have actually adviced me to try not to wear that kind of shorts anymore.. they did it in such a suttle way that i didnt feel bad about it, and somehow it encourages me to change. it takes time for me, but eventually i will change. because i want to change. however, that girl should have not done that.. tho with a good intention, but the way she humiliated me (intentionally or unintentioally) is not tolerable. she is a hajjah. ok fine. but the problem is to “verbally smash” people, we ourselves should look in to the mirror first. i might be wrong wearing shorts, but what about wearing hijjab with tight t-shirt and tight jeans? what about that? i read somewhere that, most women will be burnt in hell because during their lifetime, they were naked tho they wore clothes. Wearing clothes that are so tight that people can see the body line and figure is considered as being “naked”. tho inside me, i really wanted to smash her back but i held myself back. why? because i dont want to tell people about their wrong doings when i myself do the same thing. and i dont see the point of smashing her; just a waste of saliva really. she wouldnt want to listen anyway.. well she’s a hajjah, remember..? who am i to tell her that? haha  most religions are good, but i wonder why people who know the religion so well are bad people? i came across many people who call themselves ustaz, ustazah, alim ulama’ but still their actions, their words, their attitudes and their behaviours are on the contrary of what the religion taught them to be like. i wonder if the more knowledge you have about religions, the worst you will become. i thought people should be better when they know religion well, but the examples that i saw, read, and heard make me change my perception completely. these examples make me wonder more about how much do i have to know about a religion and on what level should i act upon in order to be a good follower of a religion. i am not a good muslim, i know and people notice that, but i dont want to be like those examples. i want to be better muslim. hope that someday i will become someone that i want to be.


.. i havent started on my lesson plan yet. I got the template for that thing already, and some information to be put into it. However, i dont know what to type in. argghh and now im fidgetting like those small school children on the carpet area. haha.. in fact, i am sitting on a carpet now. ha ha ha 😛 what am i typing? another blog entry instead of typing my lesson plan.. 😛

neway.. while waiting for my mind to settle down and become more productive again, i just wanna share with u guys about what happened to me yesterday. it was a pretty nice surprise for me becoz i didnt really expect that to happen. ha ha.. last month, while listening to my weekly lecture for curriculum studies, some people passed me a booklet entitle Islamic Notes for Febuary, produced by Majlis Nuqaba IPBA (whatever it is..). So, instead of listening to that same old same old boring lecture, i started to flip thru the booklet. and at the back of it, there’s a quiz consisting of 5 questions regarding the content of the booklet. The questions were pretty simple, and the answers could easily be found in the booklet. So, for the first time in 2008, i read an islamic booklet. and i shud b proud of that really. since i left usrah movement for quite sometimes now, and that was the first time i turn back reading islamic content for my knowledge. and to be frank, im enlightened tho i didnt see the light, like any other people. 😛 but at least i’ve tried to move myself nearer to my religion aite..??  back to the story, to find the answers i have to read the content, and that’s what i did. i read it from cover to cover, and by the end of the lecture i got back to the questions and aswered all of them.

since i got internet access from my room, so i ran back to the hostel and composed an email to send my answers to the editor. I thought nobody wants to take part in that quiz, but i was wrong. from my informer, he told me that i was the 6th or 7th people to submit their answers. so i thot i cudnt stand a chance to win any of the prizes. and that wasnt my intention anyway. i did enter the quiz not becoz i want to win, but just for fun. and i didnt put any hope to win.

so, what happened yesterday was.. when i went to my friend’s room to take the lesson plan sample, he gave me a nicely wrapped item with my name on it. the item looks like this;

it is quite small really. and can u guess what’s inside? well, im sure u guys can since it is an islamic quiz, so the present wud be kinda islamic as well. so basically for the naib johan, i got an Islamic book entitled “the collection of An-Nawawi – 40 Hadith (Prophet’s Traditions)”. To date, i’ve read almost half of the book already. and that wud be another record for me since it is very unlikely for u guys to see me reading, what else reading the academic and islamic stuff. anyhow.. that’s what happened to me yesterday and i find it quite interesting really. as i dont face this kind of stuff very often. and one thing for sure, i might consider to continue to enter quiz-es like this one in the future. and as always, i will never expect anything out of it. and that what makes life become more interesting.

and to end this entry, there’s a question that i need to seek for the answer. “why didnt the editor give the prize directly to me?” I wonder why 😛


Hey.. been awhile (so cliche!, but i hv to use it :P) since the last time i wrote an entry into this blog. Well, actually im in the middle of planning my lesson for the microteahing which is going to be held on the 31st March. Kinda excited and at the same time, anxious about that really. However, since i could not concentrate on that for aboout 1hour now, so better of i start writing something on my blog  mind all the grammatical mistakes since i will not check back this entry and will post it just like that, or else i will just delete all of my writing and will end up not posting anything…

Well, i came across a thread in one of my fav bulletin boards entitled “Kekasih Pakai Buang”. Pretty interestin topic as it reminds me of a story about my friend and his [ex?] lover. He just got back from abroad and started a new life in a college here in KL. He was single when he got back. He didnt want to go back actually, but due to his committment to the sponsor, he had to no matter how much he hates coming back. As soon as he landed, he started a brand new life in a new college. After awhile in that college, he felt in love with one of his juniors, with the name of B. It was love at first sight. Luckily he got some connections with the juniors and had the chance to get as much information as possible about B. He got B’s phone number, but he was too guttered too actually start the ball rolling. One fine day, he got a text msg from someone. and he was so shocked that B actually texted him. Since then, they started texting each other every now and then until after a few weeks, they went out for their first date.. Well, he was really in love with B, and he told B about that. Unfortunately, at first B was reluctant to accept him as B was confused about certain things. But, B kept on giving him hopes that B actually likes him too. The relationship became too complicated as he thought B likes him, but B cant accept him as a boyfriend, but at the same time kept on giving him hope.

The problem with B was that B is confused. B is confused about lotsa things. Might be because B is still young and never experience LOVE yet. But he knows that B wants him as much as he wants B. He wants to be with B all the time, and take good care of B. But B felt like he is too controlling.. and too emotional about things. and that what makes them go a part. He couldnt let B go, but he had to. He doesnt want a lover who doesnt want to be with him all the time. Who is reluctant to go out with him. and who doesnt want to admit the feeling of love towards him. He doesnt want that. He thought he deserves more that what he is getting from B. thus he made his mind that he shud let B go. Let B experience the world. He believes in “let the people who love u go, and if they truly love you, then he will come back and never go away ever again”. Since then, after a few closure text messages, he stopped texting B. and B never text him after that.

Sometimes within the duration of them going out together, he always felt like he was just like a kekasih pakai buang. Kekasih pakai buang here refers to someone who is needed only when the other part doesnt have anyone else to turn to. He doesnt want to be like that.. he wants to love and to be love truthfully.. and why is it so hard for B to understand that. It is obvious that he trully loves you. He is willing to do anything for you.. and u know it. and im very sad to see my friend in his condition right now.. he is frustated and he has changed a lot. he starts drinking and smoking, tho people around him advised him not to. He went out a lot lately that im not sure where about. I hope he will wake up soon. and stop all these negatives behaviours. i pray hard for that.

So friends.. stop mainkan perasaan org and stop making a collection of kekasih pakai buang. You might ruin a lot lives. and life has its Karma. what goes around, comes around. maybe this time around you make people suffer because of you. but in future you will be treated the same way. If you want your life to be blessed, then respect others, so that people can respect you back!!!