…taggu desu!

22 04 2009

wah… dh lame tak main tag2 nie.. and thanks kepada si Ken sbb sudi tag aku. sudi ke..? or sbb saje nk kenakan aku ek..? hahaha… so nah buat kamu.. harap puas hati!

WALLPAPER SCREEN!!
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So, what u have to do are:

1) “Printscreen” your current desktop/laptop wallpaper! no editing… not cool!
2) Give reason(s) or explain..
3) and dont forget to tag 5 peeps.. at least!

Gud Luck
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1.
Current wallpaper

 

2.
Baru je tukar wallpaper tu actually. before this gambar ngn minah2 jepun time international nite time study dolu2. pastu semalam, while printing test paper untuk students, tetibe rindu kat kete baru aku lak :P lagipon dh lama tak tuka wallpaper baru. so, aku edit la the only pic of my car dalam simpanan aku. pastu jadik la wallpaper nih. and what i like about the wallpaper is that, die nampak cool dr dekat maopon jauh.. tak sakit mata la pendek kata. plus, sah2 la ilang rindu aku kat kete aku tuhhh.. and usually aku mmg akan letak aku nye blog add kat each wallpaper yg aku buat. so this one pon tak ketinggalan. just aku nye style kot. takde niat nk promote blog sendirik pon..

3.
Kalau boleh aku takmo la tag sesape, sbb aku pon tatau sape yg suka buat tag n sape yg tak suka. kang kalau aku tag, dorg takmo buat plak.. tp for the sake of meeting the criteria, so aku dengan berbesar hatinya meng ‘tag’:

Jessica
Idzrul Aizat
Soya
Izzy
Kimimaro yg nk kawen

and sesape je la yg terasa macam nk buat ni!

 

p/s: takde niat nak show off kete ke ape.. kebetulan plak!





… and owh i forgot

18 04 2009

i forgot to tell u, my readers, that i have a new family member. im sure those on facebook might know about this. but no harm telling others who dont know rite..? hahaha.. well, im too proud of it just to keep it to myself. so now im sharing with u. my pride and joy, SAA2397X.

 

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hehe.. been interested in this car since the first time i saw it in my college compound late last year. and at that time i was driving my loyal Kelisa. being a student, i couldnt really afford it. so i just put it in the list of cars i wanna buy once i start working. since im working now, so i thot, why not?! thus, i made my booking 3 weeks ago and got the car last week. didnt have to wait for long really…

at first i was at a crossroad. either taking myvi or vios. since i could afford both, so it was very hard to make a decision. but after taking a few days to consider everything, i made up my mind to take myvi instead of vios. y?

1. i prefer driving compact car. maybe because im used to driving my kelisa.

2. price – it is slightly cheaper. well it isnt that cheap as i took the SE full spec. plus with shorter loan duration, monthly is pretty costly, but still, it’s cheaper compared to vios.

3. spare parts – heard that vios’ spare parts are pretty expensive. haha not that im a cheapskate looking for cheap stuff, but why pay more?!

4. status – im single with no children.. i dont need big cars. and im living in a jungle. sayang mau bawak masuk vios. :P

5. appearance – i like the look of myvi more. sporty! and striking of course.

6. and a few other details…

i dont know whether im lucky or what, but it seems like the road condition going to my school is getting better by days. roads are being repaired at the moment. so i guess, it shud be easier to get in now, compared to the first i got here. thank God!

so yeah, that’s my ride. what about u..?

 

 





… dont fall just yet

11 04 2009

hmm exactly 2 weeks since the last time i’ve updated my blog. well, i got a few entries i wrote half-way and then stopped just because i was lost in metacogniting process. I hate when that happened. I got a bucket of unfinished entries which i dont know when im going to look at them again and finish them up. good news, internet in school is getting better,and we even have wifi now (using a router and school’s internet). therefore, i dont have to go down to the scary computer lab at nite anymore.. yeahoo!

and these 2 weeks, i’ve been thinking about someone so much. someone that, until this point of time, i couldnt define my feelings towards this person. like, love or just lust! but if it’s just another lusty crush, it shud have faded away since it’s been going on for a long time now. my feeling is getting stronger by day. i cud feel that it’s filling all the empty spaces in me, bit by bit. sometimes it makes me smile, frown, anxious, excited and the list continues. im pretty sure that im falling for someone again.

but deep down inside me, im afraid to think of that. to think that im loving someone. to think that i need to be committed again. to think that somehow i have to change myself to the better. not that i dont want to, but it just that im quite pleased with the way im leading my life at the moment.

or is it that im afraid of being cheated and left again?

well i cant deny that love makes us feel complete, if it is successful or when it’s still sizzling hot. but what if it doesnt go the way we want it at the end of the day? i know the feelings of falling in and out of love. and im pretty sure, being out of love after sacrificed everything is one of the most haunting nightmares ever in my life. yea, i guess im afraid of that. afraid of being chased and haunted by the kind of nightmare created by me. it can make me pee on the bed, u know?.

falling out of love is like being left alone in a dark place where u cant see anything but the darkness. and what makes it worst is that u cud hear all the eerie and spooky sounds within the darkness. there’s no one to turn to. absolutely nothing, but u and the darkness. even so, u cant hide yourself or u cant just put your hands on ur face pretending that it never happens, and wait for the ray of sunshine to guide u back to where you belong. it’s not as easy as that. it takes lot of our resources to be back normal.

but i do want to love someone and be loved back by that someone. perhaps, for the moment, i should try to define the feelings im having now. and i should give myself some time to think over this matter. and try to plan out something to actually settle this. i dont want to make a quick decision, which can make me regret it later. so, i guess the best thing to do is to wait and let the time to decide.

so, mien. dont fall just yet, ok.

au revoir!

p/s: i think i might be too open in this entry. haha dont call me jiwang or emo or whatoever ok! :P





… talented

28 03 2009

Congratz again to my fav film director, Yasmin Ahmad for her another masterpiece that i’ve enjoyed watching. Talentime is a brilliant movie, i wud say, for being able to brilliantly potray the reality of people in Malaysia. It such a beautiful piece enveloping around a few themes like love, death, sufferings, racism, judmentalism, friendship and familyhood. altho some people might not like this movie as it is being too honest in potraying the reality of people in malaysia, but i find it very enlightening. kudos to Yasmin Ahmad for giving her piece of mind about those issues in a very suttle sarcastic way, as i have expected.

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the hall was pretty empty when i watched it today. there were only 6 of us in there enjoying the movie. i dont know y, but im sure those who are not watching it, are missing something that they shud have treasured. on the back of it, i was able to enjoy the movie without much disturbance. in fact, there wasnt any disturbance at all. :P

im telling u, if u r planning to watch the movie, u shud prepare urself with a pack of tissue or two. u definitely gonna need it! being me, im not shy to cry in the cinema. watching this movie, i cried not just once but quite a few times actually. again, salute to the director. she managed to make me smile and laugh out loud at the very beginning of the movie, but it didnt last very long really. the more u r indulged in it, u can feel the emotions that the characters are feeling. u’ll feel as if u r a character in it, yourself! the romantic moments, make u feel like u r in love and when it comes to touching moments, your heart will definitely move. in the cinema, i wasnt the only one crying, but most of them were. i could hear people sobbing and see people wiping their tears away.

altho, u can see similar faces like harith iskandar, ida nerina, adibah noor etc etc in this movie. but this time around, their characters are totally in the opposite of the characters they used to act in previous movies like sepet and gubra. *thank god* at least i didnt feel as if im watching sepet or gubra, but Talentime. and the new faces too, managed to play their roles quite successfully. Mahesh, for example, altho he didnt utter a word in the movie, but he was able to play the character very well with the facial expressions, body languages and everything else he got. another example, the granny, everytime she says something with her yorkshire accent, i was almost rolling on the floor laughing!!! :p

and i love all the soundtracks in the movie. can someone find me those songs and send it to me please! :P the song that Melur sang, the Indian song ara priyaaa.. :P and the song that hafiz sang for his mother during the talentime nite were my favourite. i didnt manage to look for the titles, but if anyone happen to have those songs, please contact me!

so guys… those who like Yasmin Ahmad’s movies, u shud go and watch this one as it wont dissapoint u, i can assure u that. and to those who dont really like her masterpieces, there’s no harm trying to watch this movie. perhaps u might like it! :P

 

“There’s a lot of joy and pain in the movie. But, I’m just trying to show a simple love story between two young hearts and their innocence and sincerity in their relationship,” said Yasmin.

 

p/s: kevinnnnn! 





kerana mulut…

8 03 2009

kerana mulut badan binasa. peribahasa melayu yang selalu kita dengar.. tp usually, it refers to the action of saying things without thinking…

apparently, just now when i attended a kenduri doa selamat in conjuction with sambutan maulidurrasul, i overheard a conversation of 2 guys who are on diet.

A: Ustaz, ni bahaya ni bha. besen nasik tamba sebelah aku ja niiii ha!
B: Indak ape-apa… janji jgn tambah saja…
A: Indak bole juga bha… tangan aku laju saja ni.
B: tangan aja yg laju… janji mulut ko itu kena jaga la bha… klu tak sia2 usaha kita nie..
A: aishhh… *sambil mengurangkan jumlah nasi dlm pinggan*
B: ok itu suda bagus bha.. jangan kerana mulut badan binasa… *sambil menggayakan gaya org gemuk*

and then, the two of them started laughing so loud that everyone else in the house started to give them that weird-looking look!

and somehow i was laughing to the extent of wanting to roll on the floor, because it does make sense.. kerana mulut badan binasa.. mulut la yg rasa nk makan macam-macam. in the end, bertambah la berat badan tuuu… :P

so guys, try to give new definitions to the old sayings, im sure u’ll be suprised of the results.

p/s: to my Muslim readers, Happy Maulidurrasul!





of jodoh and marriage…

7 03 2009

funny that i wud want to write about the issue of jodoh and marriage in my blog. not that i’ve been blatantly bombarded with questions by people around me asking me about when i am getting married, or do i have a gf, or questions that relate to my love life. well, to be honest, a few people did asked me that, but me being me, always well-prepared with some concrete answers. just to keep them shut! there was one occassion when i was having my holiday in my hometown in Kelantan, one of my cousin came to me and ask me. “Amin (they call me this in Kampung), bilo nok nikoh? Nok tunggu wak gapo lagi, tuo doh. Keno nikoh doh umo-umo gini”. And i was like, WTF!! *dang*

So what did i replied? I’ll tell u later.

Seriously, at the moment, i dont feel like getting myself involve in any love relationship. what more to get married. i think im still too young. hello. im only 24 okies, and me being a man, life starts at 40. im just half way thru. yea indeed it’s true that as human, we dont know when will our life ends, but that’s not the point. the point is, being in a relationship or a marriage is indeed requires lotsa commitments and responsibilities from us. i dont think im ready for that yet.

i’ve just started working 2 months ago. 2 months isnt that long. i need longer duration to get myself settled and stable. in terms of financial and time wise, i dont think i can manage to focus on something else, but my very own life. currently, it’s pretty difficult to concentrate on too many things at the same time. i used to be pretty gud with multi-tasking, but now, im pretty much focussed on one thing only.

plus, i have set in mind that i wud only think about getting married after i get my master degree. for the mean time, i cant apply to further my study yet before my post gets confirmed. it’ll take about a year before it’s confirmed. so basically im not gonna get married in the next one year. and the course that i wish to apply will take me about 1.5 to 2 years to be completed. so, to calculate, im not gonna get married in the next 3 years. :P and that’s only the simplest calculation. if i were to make it more complex, i might not gonna lose my single title in at least 5 years. hahaha that’s pretty long isnt it? well, not for me.

Jodoh and marriage is ours to decide. it’s in the hand of god. if He permits, then u’ll get urs, and if he doesnt… no harm to be SINGLE riteee..?? I’ve been single for a very long time, but im still here, alive and kicking! :P

Neway, before i press the publish button, I would like to congratulate a few friends of mine who are getting married in a very near future. Hope u guys are ready physically and mentally to go thru an ocean of marriage. it wont be easy, but many people survived. hope u guys will be among those people. So again, congratulation on ur wedding! (to be..)

Congratz!

Aishah  YB
Nasrul Hadie  Yana
Najibu  Soya
Hafiz  Asmah
 

Thanks for the invitations. I will go if i can. But i cant promise. u guys know the reasons la kan… :P

 

Au revoir…

 





it’s in….

25 02 2009

alhamdulillah… after not so long waiting, it’s banked in today. aha. im sure u guys know what im talking about rite..??? hehe my very first pay! ) now only i can start thinking about all those long abandoned plans. pretty much excited rite now. but i cant really show how excited i am here in this school since some of the new teachers here wont get theirs until next month. anyway… planning is necessary so that i wont go using that money on something less important. so here’s a list of things that i should consider;

1. getting a car – this gonna be an essential item. well, living in a very remote area, it’s damn hard to get in and out of here. even if there’s a transport, it would be very costly. i have to hire a ‘pirate’ and have to pay about rm100 everytime i wanna go out and in this place. another reason why a car is important is that as a teacher with a lot of responsibilities, i sometimes need to attend courses and meetings away from school. So, having a car would make my life a bit easier. ) 

2. rent a house – i’ve been thinking about this for awhile now. i wanted to rent a house in Kota Kinabalu as i need a bit of entertainment once in a while. it would be costly for me to stay in a hotel everytime i go down to kk. in fact, if i were to calculate the amount that i need to pay checking in a hotel for 2 weekends, the cost would be much higher than renting a house there. so, might as well i just rent a house there. and it would be easy if my friends and family wish to come to KK.

3. pay my loan – haha.. to survive in these 2 months, i took a loan from my father. not that he wants me to pay him back, but me being me, i dont really like to owe. so i feel obliged to pay him back. quite a large amount really. thanks abah. bcoz of the loan, i m survived here. hehe dont worry, i’ll pay u back )

4. holiday – well, since the gaji is in, so i’ve decided to go back to semenanjung this March. yippeee… im very excited now since i’d already planned what i would do if i go back. i was pretty anxious yesterday thinking about the gaji. if masuk, then the plan is ON. lucky that i got it today, so the plan is automatically ON. altho it’s only 1–week holiday, but there are a few things that i need to do. I need to freeze my gym membership, get some important books, and to settle a few documents. So i guess, i have to go back no matter what.

So that’s basically it. I m so happy that i dont know how to express it. To my colleagues all around Malaysia, i hope u guys got yours too.  





as promised…

18 02 2009

hehe.. this entry is supposed to be posted long long time ago. it has been delayed for about a month. gosh. the time flies so quickly that i didnt notice that i am here for more than a month now. there goes my youth :P anyway, i wont be writing much in here. just wanna share with u some pictures during my very first few days here….

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time nak masuk kampung.. muka heppi je  tp dlm hati… hahaha

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jalan yg terpaksa diredah berjalan kaki sbb kete takleh masuk…

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sekolah yg banjir.. nmpk mcm cetek.. tp….

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sempat berperahu atas padang sekolah…

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perahu jadik major transport for the time being…





for the moment

5 02 2009

i think…  i kinda enjoy living a life like this.

i think… challenging circumstances have made me a better person.

i think… living in a very small and remote kampung isnt bad afterall.

i think… life is full of suprises.

i think… i am stronger than i thought.

i think… i cant live without humours.

i think… i dont need a lover.

i think… i have enuff close friends.

i think… internet is a neccessity.

i think… time is shorter now.

i think… i can cope with a few addictions i had before.

i think… mobile phone is no longer my bestest friend.

i think… i need to buy a car asap.

i think… i need to rent a house soon.

i think… i need more money.

and last but not least,

i think i need to sleep! 

 

 





perihal students…

25 01 2009

Since i’ve decided to be a teacher i cant complain much. but there are a few things in my mind now that i would like to share regarding my students..

1. There are less than 60 students registered. But most of the time, less than 30 students come to school in daily basis.

2. It is normal to see 2 or 3 students in one class. If i get more than 5 students, i should be grateful.

3. My students go to school wearing their normal clothes, and will change them to school uniform when they reach the school. the reason is that some of them have to cross the river, or muddy area just to get to school. so afraid that they’ll get their uniform dirty, they wear something else first.

4. Mind you that I cant scold the students if they got their uniform dirty and wrinkled as they dont have the electricity to iron them. the teachers also sometimes wear wrinkled shirt and pants becoz the electricity couldnt support the use of iron.

5. and the students got their uniform for free every year.

6. talking about free stuff, they also got free food. the students are eligible for Rancangan Makanan Tambahan (RMT). Some teachers told me that getting RMT is one of the reason why the students come to school.

7. most of the students talk in bahasa sungai. they sometimes answered my question in bahasa sungai, and i was like “what’s tat?”. i’ve learnt a few words like “landoi” aka tadpoles etc etc.

8. but they can also speak in standard malay with sabah dialect. i was like blurred the first 2 weeks there, becoz sometimes i couldnt catch what they were saying coz they spoke really fast.

9. talking about speaking, my students can speak simple english like simple greetings. “good morning sir” “thank you sir”.

10. my year 3 students are very eager to learn english. whenever there’s no teacher in their class, they will ask me to go in and teach them more english. i loike that. that’s the readiness that i love to see.

11. plus, they are very cute and funny…

12. they even ask for homeworks, altho sometimes they forgot to do it!

13. My year 5 students are good. They know lots of english vocab but they are too shy to use the language.

14. they can answer simple comprehension questions, but not the grammar part. so i knw their weaknesses and now im thinking of a plan to solve that.

15. im having more hard time dealing with my year 6 students.

16. they couldnt be bothered about UPSR.. they dont even know what it is all about…

17. there’s only 1 student in Year 6 come to school in daily basis.

18. All of them got less than 25% for their English paper in the 1st Monthly test.

19. The reason: they simply dont understand the questions since they have limited english vocab.

20. Even for questions with pictures, they answered them wrongly. eg. the picture shows  a lorry, but they answered them ‘car’.

21. For the time being, i teach them vocab based on the topic so that they are familiar with the words.

22. and rote learning is the best option i got so far.

23. one funny thing about them is that in Paper 2, they have to write simple sentences based on the pictures given. I laughed my ass off reading their sentences as they wrote them in Bahasa whereas they knew that they were answering English paper. and i gave them a big ‘?’.

24. im using both english and bahasa as the medium of instructions. i would give them instruction in english. simplify them. wrote the instruction on the board. demonstrate and the last resort wud be translating them to malay. i know it takes a lot of time, but i have to do that so that they will know i wont simply use bahasa. and they will have to work hard.

25. Im still using the smiley and sad faces on the board. they seems to like it very much coz i promised them gifts if they behave the way i want them to.

26. they love ICT. So, at least once in a week i would bring them to ICT lab to use the coursewares. they love them very much.

27. last but not the least, at 2pm sharp, at least 5 students will come to our house to watch the tele. it’s normal routine! they love watching the sinetron featuring agnes monica (im not sure of the title). sometimes they watch the dvds. altho they have watched them million times, but they keep on playing them over and over again. they love to watch ‘apocalypto’. i overheard their conversation, translated into proper bm “aku suka la tengok cite orang asli ni” and one of them replied “kau sedar la sikit, ko tu pon sama”. and i was like LMAO and then continued with my nap!

 

p/s: love all of your students. if they feel your love, u’ll be embraced with their love too. attend to all and never practise favouritism. stop racism, stop favouritism!